The thing about Maharaj-ji that was interesting was that, no matter where I looked, I couldn’t find him. I mean, all these stories and events, and he did things that were just all this stuff, but I couldn’t find a person there. I couldn’t find somebody. There was nobody responsible inside. There was nobody minding the store, if you will.
I began to understand what it is that is the end result of what it is you and I are doing here. And it was the chilling realization that the end result didn’t have “me” in the scenario; that I just wasn’t going to be there to say, “Well, this is the end result.” See, I’ve been saying it so many ways. I’ve been saying, “You can get up to the door, but you can’t get through.” And I say all these cute things, like “Nobody gets enlightened.” But I never really grokked it. I never really experienced the feeling of what that no-self-consciousness means.
We are babysitting our own psychological death. And whether our physical death is coincidental with that will be of no relevance to us. Can you imagine that one? Because when you aren’t, when there is no self-conscious entity, what difference does it make whether the body or that body is there or not? And when I try to make sense out of the things that my guru has said, it only makes sense when I do not try to project a solid, self-conscious entity into them.
I just want to keep this chilling spectacle of where the game leads in my consciousness and in yours. Because I think that what has happened for many of us is that we have been somewhat reductionistic about the spiritual journey, and we’ve tended to say it’s nothing other than BLIP. But the words that characterize the Sufi tradition of “towards the one,” “the return to the one,” means just that: return to the one. And when there is one, there are not two. And your self-consciousness only exists so long as there are two. It does not exist in the one. God does not know itself, it only knows itself through a duality. And duality has inherent within it suffering, and the end of suffering is the end of duality, and the end of duality is the end of you. And then the forms may go on or not, but you will never notice.